I want to put a shelf up in the laundry room because I am tired of keeping the deteregents and fabric softner in the hallway closet. I have bought the shelf but I had no Idea I need to buy so special nails or spring plungers to hold the dang on rack up. I need something sturdy because the detergents can be a little bit heavy and I dont want it breaking.

I swear that they need to make Directions dummy friendly because I needed to read the directions three times before I realized I needed special tools to set the freaking thing up. So now I have a rack that will be sitting in the closet till I have the time or feel well enough to go to the store to find the things I need to build my freaking shelf. I want to scream but I wont . I wish I could just pay someone who had all the tools or parts needed and just build the freaking thing for me . Okay I am done with my rant.

It makes me so sad to turn on the news and see nothing but wars or bombing or people being killed in India. When is all this violence going to stop? I realy worry about what my children are going to be subjected to with all this violence going on. Right now they dont see all the evil in the world but sooner or later they are going to get older and see all the violence that is going on. I hope that the new president can change all this.

I have high hopes and will never stop believing that people have good in them and want peace and a nice clean earth for their children to grow up in. I want to do my own contribution and go green . This pregnancy has made me emotional and has gotten my mind running on and on about what world my kids are going to grow up in. It doesn’t help to watch movies about the world ending either.

p.s. I need to remind myself to look at tv stands for the girls room. cause the one they is ready to break.

I am slowly getting the place clean. I have been doing the cleanig in sections and taking many breaks. I hope to have the whole place done before we ring in the new year. The hubby is going to be picking up dinner adter work so I dont have to worry about cooking anything.

In my quest to getting the house clean for new years I have come across so many cds that I had totally forgotten I had and dont listen to any more. I am so used to using my mp3 player that a whole bunch of my used cds are just sitting there collecting dust. I think I am going to collect all my old books and the cds I was telling you about and trade them for some cool new gadgets at abundatrade.com . How cool is it that I can get some new stuff by sending them my old stuff. What is cool abou them too is tha they tell me which of my cds are valued more so I know what to send in that will earn me the most. My goal is to get an Ipod so I am going to be checking my books and cds to see which ones are valed the most and I will be sending those in.

I wish they had some program where I could send all the clothes my kids have outgrown. Until someone comes up with something to the goodwill they go.

I haven’t felt much like writing because I have been so sick. If puking wasnt bad enough I got a cold with it and a really bad cough that just wont go away. I had a good and peaceful week of nausea but no puking and thought to myself there is the light at the end of the rainbow but no I went back to the constant puking and nausea that has been plagueing me this past few months.

On top of that I have so man things I want to do that I just can’t get too. I want the house to be suer clean for New Years but it doesnt look like it will all get done. My energy level is extremely low right now. I really wish I had a maid to help me out at least till I have the babies and am able to do it myself. I dont like asking for help but I do need it. I can be very prideful at times and that is sometimes not that good of a quality to have.

On a totally unrelated note I have noticed how much my nails and hair have grown since taking the prenatal vitamins. My nails have always been brittle and break very easily but I have noticed that they have been healthier and longer since taking the vitamins. Maybe I should be taking vitamins even when I am not pregnant and that way I will be healthier and less prone to getting sick

We had a good christmas if we take out the little family drama that happens every year with my hubby’s brother. For some reason there is always tension between them even when there is no reason for there to be. I think it has to do with sibling rivalry that they never outgrew.

Regardless of that we had a wonderful time and got to see a good movie. We went to see The curious case of Benjamin button. Brad pitt was fabulous in it. I can’t believe this is the first time I have been to the movies since I found out I was pregnant. I still felt a little queazy in the movie theater but I didn’t puke and that was a good day for me.

I got a laptop for christmas so that made my day. The hubby said he was going to get me a pink Sony Vaio but he knew I wanted an HP instead so that is what he ended up getting me.

The kids got everything they wanted and a little bit more so they are super happy. I couldn’t believe how much christmas wrapping there was to throw away. I am just glad we got the living room clean after all the gifts were open. Alls well that ends well.

I finally got out today and got some of the decorations for Ashleys birthday. I could not believe how most of my pants are not fitting me. If it wasn’t because I am pregnant right now I would seriously be on some kind of fat burner machine. I know that they probably are not fitting me because I am pregnant but I am barely going to be three months so this is getting rediculous.

While we were out I was able to pick up some tamales. They are my absolute favorite and I wish I could have them everyday. Jason’s family came over and had some too and they absolutely loved them. I think the batch we bought was the best of them. There was still some left over but I got a feeling that they wont be there tommorow

As much as I would love to be shoppign with my sis in law right now I smply cant. I woke up with a sore throat yesterday and today I have a cough. I am so desperate to be out that I didn’t even care that she was going to the pet shop to look at pet beds for her doggy.

I hate being sick and it is much worse when you are pregnant because I cant take any medicine and I keep puking .I am just miserable right now. I dont even have honey or lemon to make some tea to soothe my throat. I go and see the doctors next week so if it gets any worse at least they can take a look and make sure it is not srep throat again.

I was sitting here yesterday minding my business when I heard alot of commotion outside. From my window I could see something was going on because there were like 4 or five cop cars and it looked like they were putting up barricades. I really wish I owned a pair of binoculars cause that way I would have known what was going on while in the privacy of my own home.

This is the first time that I have seen so many cops so close by. It made me feel unsafe for a little bit. I got a little paranoid and kept the kids in my room till the hubby came home. It times like this that I wish I had some kind of safety equipment in the house other than the basic first aid kit and the fire extingusher we have here.

Maybe I was being too overly paranoid but I have no Idea what was going on over there all I know whas that I was home alone with the kids and that was not cool. As curious as I was to know what was going on htere was no way I was stepping outside to find out

Welll now that I am pregnant with twins it is out of the question to travel anywhere. Even though I am afraid of flying the hubby and kids have wanted to go to walt Disney world in Florida . If I weren’t pregnant I would seriously consider booking a reservation with Westgate and just relaxing on the beach and enjoying Walt Disney world. But and its a huge but we are now expecting twins and those plans are now on the back burner till we have the babies.

Oh and since going to the docter’s I have found out that since we are having twins we have to go every 2 weeks instead of the usual one month check ups. we also get an ultrasound pratically every visit from what I was told so that is going to be cool. I cant wait to find out what gender the babies are.

I am still wondering what this whole bleeding spotting thing is about. I can’t help but worry about how the babies are doing. I have to wait till nest tuesday to find out cause the stupid doctor’s wont see me till then.

I try to watch t.v and take my mind of of things and one of my favorite shows to watch is extreme makeover the home edition. I just love watching them build dream houses and decorate all the rooms. I just love the way they do every houses kitchen. I have always wanted a huge kitchen with fancy kitchen sinks that have fancy faucets and are extremely spacey. I know what my dream house looks like in my head and someday I will have it I tell you . Till then I will just try not to think about what is going on right now and keep getting ideas from one of my favorite shows.